Dracolipop

icarus' curse

2010-10-20T15:45:00.000+08:00

icarus, icarus
i emphasize you
soaring above the skies
too close you flew

to holy Mother star
bright and life-giving
she captivated you whole
burning and scorching

and when you fell
plummeting to the ground
both love and life lost
so sudden without a sound

icarus, icarus
our fates are alike
for i too have a sun
who gives my heart flight

and like a moth to flames
i am hopelessly drawn to him
and will eagerly throw away life
just to fulfill his whim

fluorescent angels

2010-10-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

what can you find
in a world of fluorescent angels
where saints and love
can be found in brothels?

i drink to the ghost of Blake
and i raise my glass to Death
the Devil bought my soul today
for the heat of your breath

don't waste your heart on
sincere prayers for a better day
cause the gods will only laugh
for your sorrow is their play

but you knew this painful truth
you have always did
but i say "nothing can't be fixed
with a glass of honey mead"

i swore that should i dream
i would dream like a god
i judge not sinners nor saints
let karma separate truth from fraud

but know this, all that i've bled and cried
i have only wanted to be
the one who remains through the tide
of time, engraved in your memory

time

2010-10-12T21:38:00.003+08:00

i woke up falling into the sky
chasing after the sands of time
always just beyond my grasp
the cruel unjustifiable crime

and i saw the horizon devour the sun
and it dyed the world in an orange glow
and i suddenly knew a heartache
i never thought i would know

and i continued to fall into infinity
and broke this body on cold hard sanity
and all my pieces scattered in the wind
like the vermilion petals of a wilting peony

still i chased the priceless sands of time
though blue flames bound my aching heart
and how i grasped on tightly to the moments
whilst my very soul doth depart

swept up by Zephyrus' sweet breath
and bursting into golden blue fire
i, with a heavy sigh, exhaled my last
and drowned in my own desire

when you fall in love

2010-06-15T21:20:00.003+08:00

when you fall, o how you fall
without restraint
without fear or caution
the dream couldn't be taint

and he was your gravity
pulling you down full force
you fell so dizzyingly fast
no time to think or feel remorse

and when you hit the ground
you broke- shattering into pieces
gone are all the dreams with him
gone the hopes and wishes

then tears fell like rain
dissolved each broken shard
till all the pieces became
once again, a whole heart

cause broken hearts will mend
though we fall over and over again
and as much as the next one might hurt
you're willing to brave the pain

delusions

2010-06-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

in a world of blinding fluorescent lights
i was drowning in a sea of gray faces
pushed and shoved around without direction
only silence fills the empty spaces

frantically reaching out, i screamed your name
but my voice was drowned out by the storm
and though you're just a beautiful delusion
even the jealous wind snatched away your form

the rain chills me to my bones but still
i embraced it, gladly let it drench my skin
cause it's the only way to hide my tears
and camouflage the breaking heart within

frantically reaching out, i screamed in pain
but my voice was drowned out by the storm
and though love is just a beautiful illusion
the dreamer wakes and the magic is gone

2010-05-25T02:51:00.001+08:00

something's are better left unsaid. once again i've been made a fool of by myself. of all ppl...i thought you would get me more...

how could they know?

2010-05-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

painted pictures on the wall
hang morbidly down the empty hall
their eyes watched me as i go
forever silent with the secrets they know

their stare could not slow my stride
laments of old ghosts, i do not abide
i stopped at the door with flowers
it stood out so brightly among the others

i could hear her inside, breathing slow
sleeping soundly, she couldn't possibly know
i saw her face, so very young
so full of hopes, her story barely begun

sleeping peacefully without a stir
oblivious to laments of old ghosts getting louder
the morning came as always before
another normal day but with something more

a scream resonates through the hall
hurried feet ran past pictures on the wall
behind the door with painted flowers
around the bed a sad family gathers

so young, they couldn't possibly know
that it was her time to go

for jo ^^

2010-05-13T13:30:00.002+08:00

was walking through jusco with my sis last night when the colour yellow caught my eye ^^
hope you likes.

sleep depravity

2010-05-10T19:14:00.000+08:00

so many things happened in the wee hours of the morning. here's how it went. it started last night, i was on the com when i started getting a terrible headache. i was planning on going to bed earlier but dad asked me to accompany him watch a movie cause he'll be leaving for China at 3am. he was planning on staying awake cause it was only a few hours left anyways but halfway through Solomon Kane which was a lousy movie by the way, dad couldn't stand it anymore and went to bed. leaving my sister and i to finish the movie by ourselves.

honestly, the movie was horrid. the acting was as rigid as a rusty cogwheel. the lines were cheesy and the storyline is way overused ><. my head was throbbing and i was pissed at the movie's main actor but i had to see it to the end. i blame my stubbornness. finally the movie ended at 1 at which i promptly climbed into bed and fell asleep. two hours later dad woke me up. apparently his taxi didn't come so now i need to accompany mom to drop him at lcct. the one good thing about this was the highways were totally deserted. the endless stretch of asphalt seems to continue on into eternity. the bright street lights tinted the world in an orange glow. the street lights themselves looks like the reflected scales of a great golden dragon, dancing off into the night. staring at the night sky, i'm greeted by the Cheshire cat's grin. truly a night of wonderment ^^. i got home around 5 or 6. slept for awhile before experiencing stomach aches. hahaha. so lucky ne? ><

mom's day!!!

2010-05-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

firstly, HAPPY MOM'S DAY to all the wonderful moms out there ^^.
to celebrate this wonderful day, dad bought us burger king in the morning and watched a chinese movie together. i don't know the english name for the movie. sorry ><. then the four of us (mom, dad, sis and i) went to midvalley to do some Mom's day shopping but all three gals ended up getting and expensive present each ><. sis bought a pair of ankle high sneakers from echopark. i got ankle high sneakers too from 3point6 but they can transform. mwahahahah!! mom got a red handbag from charles and keith. hehe ^^ awesome day!!

my shoes. front view. ugh...my leg looks so damn fat ><

hehe. now you see why i say it can transform?

you can detach the top part. before...

after ^^. hehe i luvs my new shoes!!!

i hate the way my legs look in all the pics. damn fat. lol.

on to something more serious. after the shopping, as we were walking to the carpark, dad told me that he wasn't worried about my lil sis. it's me he's worried of. he told me that my sis is more extroverted and can take care of herself whilst my personality is more introverted. basically the message i got from him is that i need to be selfish more often. haha ><

sigh...i don't know...i wish i can be strong like you want too, dad. i really do....

core

2010-05-08T19:24:00.000+08:00

i'm fairly open minded but sometimes that means that i'm susceptable to bad influences and i'm also a known daydreamer. it's hard to keep my mind on earth when i'm you're an air sign ><. but the few things that keep me grounded and on the straight path is my strong belief in karma. my father is a roman catholic but he never forced his belief on us. he gave us a choice since the very begining and guided us with reasoning. he said something that i would never forget. i've made that one statement of his as my core-my whole life is lived in light of this.

my father said, "whatever you do in life, whatever decisions you make, make sure you'll be able to face your conscience after. you don't need religion or whatsoever as long as you are guided by your conscience."

that's the only thing that keeps me moving forward come hell or high water. that's the only way i survive and i think that's a good way to life...don't you?

date night

2010-05-03T20:27:00.000+08:00

went on a 'date' today with my bluetooth buddy ^^. it was awesome. making jokes about my exes and other people's choice of clothes or food ><.

honestly, all the jokes about my exes makes me realise just how over them i am cause i'm strong enough to laugh at myself for ever being with them in the first place.

then we had a roaring time watching tina fey and steve carell's 'date night'. we laughed through out the whole movie. i think i almost died of suffocation a few times >< but it would have been a happy death. haha

after the movie, we went hunting for a suitable present. bluetooth buddy couldn't stop laughing at VB as we passed him a few times. at least that gayfuck is useful for something XD

today was good ^^ i came out feeling tired yet somehow refreshed. life is good ^^

so sorry....

2010-04-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

every sign and logic said 'no'
so this feeling has to go
for it i shall shed a tear
'goodbye my sweet dear.'

i'm so sorry we had no chance to be.
i'm sure we would've been so happy
if i've disapponted you in anyway
for your forgiveness i pray

but you are much too important to me
i won't gamble in something so risky
what we have now is pure and true
i don't want to taint this friendship with you

all i can say now is i'm so very sorry
but know that i feel for you dearly
you would have been so perfect
but alas life dealt us this cruel trick....

:'(

2010-04-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

to my heart i won't be slave
so this feeling i must stave
no harm done with my silence
but my heart-it rages with defiance

so tell me now what to do
cause i think... i'm falling for you

:(

2010-04-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

there is a secret i dare not speak
the will is strong but the heart is weak
i know it has no chance so i shall not
so my little secret is best forgot...

forget it la...

just a story

2010-04-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

one fine day, i sat upon a tree
in the company of a little fairy
tiniest of tiny was she
and goes by the name of 'cherrybee'
then from afar we did see
something bright and shiny
upon closer look we saw
maliced glee with golden claws
and in the shadows It spoke
"little fairy on the oak
won't you come down to play with me?
i am oh so very bored and lonely"
cherrybee turned to me and said
"by fairy law, i must not deny the dead
but promise me before night turns to light
you will have me back in sight"
i bent down low to face her
and gently whispered in her ear
"your safety i swear by my sword
in my honour, i give you my word"
she left me and went into the shadow
i sat silently and watched her go
i did not move as long as she was gone
and waited till the coming of dawn
i then clutched my sword, lorelei
and with hurried feet, i was on my way
wise was my dear cherrybee
to leave trails of clues for me
across rivers and forests i did leap
an oath in my heart i was determined to keep
following the clues that cherrybee gave
i came upon a deep dark cave
inside, cherrybee was trapped in a cage
made of sorrow essence and rage

"release her, you foul undead
lest lorelei severes your head"

the beast then grew in size and form
in It, i felt a thundering storm
i gathered my courage and charged into the fight
the battle lasted two days and night
golden claws struck mortal flesh
blow for blow and clash for clash
lorelei claimed her share of blood too
till golden claws ran me through
i caught Its hand whilst still embedded in me
with one final blow, i severed head from body
then silently, It lay wasted at my feet
and that was the end of It
weakened, drained and bleeding still
i summoned all strength and will
i managed to free my dear cherrybee
and we slowly made it back to our tree
on that fine day, i sat upon our tree
just me and a fairy called 'cherrybee'
i laid lorelei down and with one last breath
i bid her goodbye and hello to Death.

a moth under the skin

2010-04-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

he tells me he's ok
that he's fine, he's happy
but i know inside he's aching
please don't try lying to me

i can feel the darkness
and the sorrowful void within
fluttering for release
like a moth under your skin

you're so afraid, so scared
to reveal even the slightest weakness
fearing i'll turn you away
in horror of your hurting ugliness

but don't you know me at all?
'as long as it takes till you're happy'
so go ahead and shed those tears
cause to me, they're an abnormal beauty

a friend of mine, cyrus, asked me to write a poem with the sentence 'a moth under the skin. abnormal beauty'. lucky i was feelin the emo at that time ^^

gentleman bones

2010-04-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

yes i know this concept is recycled but there's a twist this time ^^

Gentleman Bones, King of Shadows and Night
with creeping feet, across rooftops performed flight
until his eyes were caught by a glint afar
when came close, t'was a window ajar

yet peering inside said irregular window
he found a slumbering figure in the shadow
tiptoeing inside with hushed feet
determined was he, this figure to meet

and there lay this sleeping beauty in bed
her face he saw where the light shone on her head
lightning, great and thundering, struck his chest
so his love captured by this little one in rest

how silent and still was she, so alike the peaceful dead
and her lips, mesmerized him, seductive blood red
so dumbfounded he, so struck by Cupid's arrow
that he stayed till the night turned morrow

and as the sun began to stir, from her lips he stole a kiss
before daylight dashed the dear Shadow King to mist
the mist caught light and birthed rainbow across the space
thus marked the end of Gentleman Bones with fine grace

she who did steal hearts in sleep now awoke
and from those crimson lips, these words she spoke
"for beauty did Death die," then began to cry
sich void and sorrow in her heart and she knew not why

shine through

2010-04-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

she found him in a field
staring blankly at the sky
he's stared at it for so long
the stars were captured in his one eye

he was trully a sight to see
so broken up and torn
with a few hairs left and one good eye
half of his body was gone

"i used to be beautiful once, you know
now i am a shame to behold
i was perfect, shining and new
not broken, dull, torn and old"

"you're still beautiful to me," she said
but it only made him cry
she hushed him with sweet coos
and wiped the tears from his eye

she smiled and said to him
"i'll make you beautiful again"
then she tore open his chest
he screamed and screamed in pain

"trust me," she said to him
"let go of this broken body
and retreat back into your heart"
he had no choice but to obey quietly

his heart was cracked
but she carefully picked up every piece
each and every tiny shard
not one did she miss

with his heart in hand
she quickly ran home
with hurried feet and a hopeful heart
in an instant she was gone

she took the pieces of his heart
and tied them up with a string
as she worked with care and love
his heart began to sing

it started in a very low hum
and she hummed along with him
she then strung the pieces by the window
when the sun shone through, he gleamed!

rainbow lights danced across the room
and his song rang louder and louder
he was beautiful again
and it's all thanks to her

i had a previous poem that reffered to broken glasses as well but lately a dear friend of mine inspired me to write a more detailed one ^^ thank you baby bro!!

day of outing

2010-04-13T16:18:00.000+08:00

one day a frog, a sponge and a masked rider
decided to come out to play together
first they had a burning session
to de-stress through fiery arson

after which they took the train
all the while hoping ti would rain
cause the weather was awfully hot
even the frog was beginning to rot

BBQ Plaza was on their mind first
with magical soup to quench their thirst
after which they went for a swim
down the 'money river', looking for a machine

the machine was not to be found
but froggie was pissed off a few rounds
luckily spongebob brought a bottle of sterilizer
it helped to calm down froggie's anger

masked rider went to cut his hair
he wanted to give it some J-rock flare
so the other two had to wait
they went to Esquire Kitchen and ate

watered down curry and tiny clams
and peanut tong yuen was served to them
the food sucked but it's all right
cause masked rider's hair came out tight

then sponge and froggie got lost
ended up in chow kit, laughed their ass off
all in all it was an awesome day
cause three good friends came out to play

random

2010-04-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

just some pics i've took these day ^^

bro sweet sweet with seet yee jie on the phone while waiting for mom at the airport

sunset at my house's balcony
coming home from college. very obvious which side is raining ^^

lamy's first blackout. she was hot and scared. poor thing

old school lamp >.<

thunder storm so the lil gal is scared and cuddled up on my pillow...when i was sleeping on it. lol

then she went to hide in the corner

looks like she's being punished to stand at the corner. haha

that's all ^^

my babie!!

2010-04-04T14:13:00.001+08:00

white shoes: rm22 (pallas)

stationaries. getting ready for 'go-time'

i'm designing after this frog ^^

pencil sketch on paper

cut it out

finished product!! hehe. left side

right side. shy shy ne~

of course need to put branding >.<

I LUV MY NEW SHOES!!

and thank you sifu(cyrus) for coaching.

muahahaha!!

-dance-

fear

2010-04-04T12:29:00.000+08:00

my father used to tell me that fear is the beginning of wisdom and i agree. fear makes us cautionary, helps us keep our guard up so we don't get hurt so easily.

however...i also believe that we need to live life with a bit of faith. even though we've been hurt before doesn't mean that we have to give up on our hopes and dreams. don't let the fear of being hurt again cripple us.

we only have one life. try to live with as little regrets as possible and with as much happiness as possible.

lastly...don't say the "L-word" until you're absolutely sure. it's a very powerful, pure and serious word.

peace out!!

2010-04-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

i wish...they would stop thinking i'm so dumb or blind...

i know that i'm not the smartest...but that doesn't mean i don't understand what's happening...

i see you...i can see your hurt and it's okay. you don't have to act tough in front of me. if you are hurt then just say so. i don't like being lied to.

you don't have to say it or admit it but don't fake it. the whole world can lie to me but not you guys...my family and friends...

i hate it when that happens...cause in the end, i'm just being outcasted again...left outside of your lives.

i can see it and it hurts to know that i share so much with you but you are hiding from me...

sigh...

the reflected world

2010-04-02T17:44:00.000+08:00

he fell into the Reflected World

through a field of indigo lights

that bounced off silver clouds

birthing melancholy in flight

i saw him as he fell
tried to reach but he was too far
saw him drown in somnolence
curled up beneath a star

her face haunts him still
etched behind his dark eyes
forever captured in sepia
still smiling through those lies

sorrow bled through dark eyes
bursting into a million galaxies
sparkling like sand in the sun
scattered by Zephyrus' breeze

i stood enthralled and waiting
till Apollo's light grew dim
he was trapped in the Reflected World
and i could not follow him...

froggie madness

2010-04-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

as most of my friends know, i love froggie products ^^

here are some of the frog memorabilias i've collected ...

froggie file

hat, photo album, handphone holder, clips, toothbrush and cup and coin holder

box, doll, 2 purses, mirror and handkerchief

clay figurine my bro's gf(seet ye) made for me ^^

it's detachable

this is how it looks like put together

haha ^^ i'm planning a newest addition to my collection.

froggie shoes. muahaha

i've bought fabric markers. now all i need are a pair of white shoes. yes!!

i luvs its...

I LUV YOU

2010-03-31T19:17:00.000+08:00

one of my friends told me to write whatever i feel...

this is how i feel..

thank you for being there
for sharing my happiness and joy
for sharing my sorrow and pain
thank you for lifting me up when i'm down
for all the good times and memories

now i want to tell you i can do the same
when you're sad, my shoulder is here
when you are happy, i will be near
when you are stressed, you can share my plastic bag ^^
when you are in pain, i can organise a burning session anytime

to my friends and darlinks...
I LUV YOU!!

lesson learnt

2010-03-31T16:41:00.000+08:00

my angels were demons in diguise
and once more i fell for their lies
their greedy claws have picked me apart
all save for my weak pathetic heart

they deemed it unworthy to take
too broken, too scarred, too mangled to take
it may be pathetic and weak but it is my own
it is the only heart i've ever known

but this lesson has thought me well
so i thank my little demons from hell
to help open my eyes and see
the only person i can count on is me

hoping

2010-03-31T16:38:00.000+08:00

yes, still here
still childishly hoping
this hoping child
heart broken but unwavering

someone take me away
far from this place
take my hand, hold tight
lead my back to grace

hail Mary, pity this lost one
don't let her heart turn to stone
save her, save her please
don't leave me alone...

(just saying i still believe in love out there but have to open my eyes wider next time...)

king of...

2010-03-31T15:51:00.000+08:00

give me something real to hold
something more than this shadow in my heart
give me truth not apparations of lies
otherwise have my life depart

it's too tiresome coming out lost
everytime in this unending struggle
for what cause? what mysterious holy end?
do i continue on in this torturous battle?

wear that golden crown of garnet gems
made of dried bloody tears
each one sparkles with such sorrow
my royal crown of disappointment and fears

but why is it i still look to the sky
hoping for a glimmer of the True
buried behind clouds of wailing souls
once the believer forever the believing fool...

orpheus

2010-03-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

orpheus was the greek god of music. it was said that with his lyre and singing, he could charm every living thing on the planet. orpheus had a wife named eurydice whom he loved above all else.

then one day as eurydice was out picking flowers, she ran into aristaeus who was captivated by her beauty and immediately became obsessive of her. eurydice ran from aristaeus but the aristaeus would not give up and chased after her. in their chase, eurydice accidentally stepped into a nest of snakes and was bitten. the bite proved fatal and eurydice die soon after.

devastated by the death of eurydice, orpheus played such sad songs and sang so mournfully that all the gods wept. the gods took pity on orpheus and advised him to go to the underworld to persuade hades to return eurydice's soul. orpheus' music touched even the stone heart of hades and the god of the underworld agreed to release eurydice under one condition : orpheus must walk in front of eurydice and never look back until they've both left the underworld.

but as they pair began their journey, orpheus began to worry if it was trully his eurydice walking behind him or if it was hades' trick. they were almost at the surface but orpheus could not stand anymore and turned to greet his wife. as soon as orpheus saw eurydice's face, she said goodbye to her husband forever and vanished...

outing with my darlinks ^^

2010-03-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

went out to play with agatha, sarah, jovi, cyrus and zidane today ^^.
reached college at about ten. then me and jo started the burning session first cause he couldn't resist. that boy prepared everything. lighter, spirit, screwdriver, a burning can and even paper cut outs of 'siew yan'.

cyrus finally reached with our new long-haired friend zidane. burning session became crazy after that. haha. everything feels so much better after that. flush out all the bad memories ;)

ah! today i had sakae sushi for the first time ^^. agatha was right, the froggie shoes are cute ^^. after lunch we visited petronas sains. i haven't been there for a very very long time. haha cyrus got frightened by a rapping t-rex 3 TIMES ^^ haha. then there was this hurricane machine. jo wanted to bring it home as a giant dryer. haha

all in all, today can be summed up in one word...AWESOME!!

too invincible to die

2010-03-29T22:22:00.001+08:00

i've never feared Hades
nor his three-headed hounds
my loyalty lies with Zephyrus
whose spirit you cannot bound

floating down river on our backs
we stared dreamy-eyed at the sky
in the distance we hear Pan's lute
feeling too invincible to die

forget-me-nots

2010-03-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

whispered prayers in the wind
hope that it'll carry my voice to you
staring at the looking glass
but i can never get through

hold me like you'll break me
it doesn't matter if you do
steal my breath and life
and take it into you

a cold broken corpse
amongst a field of forget-me-nots
blank eyes to the darkening skies
even in death they sought
(for your face, they sought...)